Showing posts with label Estudio Nomada. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Estudio Nomada. Show all posts

Sunday, December 30, 2012

NOW


2012 will end tonight. I woke up before the sun without planning.  Just reviewed what happened this past year again.  I realize the biggest lesson I learned is to live in the moment.  When I was traveling, I had no baggage of the past and future but made decision based on NOW.  A risk/opportunity is presented before me.  Only a moment is needed to take it or miss it.  The rest is history.  Many people may spend a whole life running away from the past and worrying about the future.  Yet life passes by when we are not here and now.

My ego never lets me get away easily.  It is constantly under threat and will look for all possible ways to survive, including taking my whole being down.  I was there – the bottom of the pit, the wrestling ring, the isolated corner…  But I refuse to live in self-conflict anymore.  NOW it’s the time to take a step back and observe the bullshits my ego has been feeding me all my life.  All those fears, hatred, anxiety blinded me.  How could I have mistaken my ego as my true self?

Nevertheless, the only way to deal with the monstrous self is not to fight it but to be with it.  No analysis, no critique, no negotiation, no nothing.  Just simply be, as you are.  Such a presence will bring peace and shine light on the chaos.  In fact, it is just another way to live in the moment.  When a gap is created between the compulsive thoughts, we feel our breaths and come alive.

Anyhow, goodbye, ego.  In 2013, you are no longer the ruler of my heart.  I am.

天未光一早醒來,腦袋報告還有不少事務要處理,但我偏偏選擇回顧2012發生的種種,發現這一年最大的功課是活在當下,遊歷時,我沒有過去和未來的包袱,只管面對眼前一個又一個的挑戰和機會,它們不會等人,一瞬即逝,很多人窮盡一生精力與過去周旋及為未來憂慮,但卻忘記了生命其實只有現在這一刻是真實的。

「自我」從來不會輕易放過我,他經常感受到威脅,會用盡一切方法求存,甚至賠上生命也在所不惜,那些深淵、鬥場、死角我已經歷過無數次並厭倦了自我掙扎這門把戲,是時候退一步觀察「自我」一路以來在耳邊說的狗屁,原來我一直被那些恐懼、憎恨、焦慮蒙蔽了雙眼,竟把「自我」誤以為真我。

雖然如此,與這個霸度的「自我」搏鬥卻不是出路,相反我要學習與之共處,不再分析、批判、理論內的想法,靜靜聆聽,感受真我那平和的存在,簡單而言,它只是活在當下另一種演繹方式,不用思前想後,以靜制亂、以柔制剛。

總之2013年,自我拜拜,當下自由自在地隨心過活!

Already started working the second day I was back... this is Hong Kong...
HUGE THANKS to three sisters who helped me soooooo much!  LOVE LOVE LOVE!!!
In the middle of the night, at an old factory, an artist painting, what's next?
A great sunny day for the actual installation.
Presenting the one & only Upcycle Xmas tree at Gold Coast HK! 
My heart smiles when trash finally got transformed into art.
Make a wish, my friend. 
What's up with this kiddy looking set?  Well, I was on a TV kid's program, LOL!
Lau family with grandma
Sis, you looked stunning.  Glad to be back earlier for your big day.
Happy wedding, my beloved!
Believe it or not, this is indeed HK.  NO KIDDING.
Happy Gale looks tiny in the rocky scene.
My tough & lovely Ship who is always up for any challenge.
Oh yea baby, I modeled again... this time with plants.
Love the scarf.
Haven't modeled for almost half a year.  Brought back lots of memories. 
Seven Deadly Sins Opening Performance.
wrestling ring
bottom of the pit
isolated corner
Underneath Sloth - one of the paintings for the exhibition
Participated in Moving Arts Hong Kong, I danced with the waves, the sands, and the light in my homeland.  My scene is at the last 30 seconds of this clip: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xHvMsfYDMAg
The 3 babies united at last.  Good show, my dear!
CHEERS, for 2013!
The nomadic art grant is still on.  For details, http://hongkong.estudio-nomada.com/


Friday, June 22, 2012

Past Lives

"We have met in previous lives." Dan, my first host in Paris said to Philomène & me while we were having tea in the morning. "Perhaps this meeting of us was arranged by our souls in the dream."

"During one life I was a sick little German girl, You, an injured Russian soldier, and Philomène, a doctor. Our brief encounter was on the hospital beds." Dan continued, "Before this life, we were even one Vietnamese family: I the child, you the mother, and Philomène the father."

Regardless incarnation is true or not, I was fascinated by the idea of a soul reunion.  Since I didn't have much quality sleep camping for the art festival in cold & rainy Wales, my recovery time in Paris with OLD friends was exactly what I needed.  No rush, no plan, no stress, just good companies & delicious homey foods! Thanks to my warm hosts, Paris didn't give me the bitter aftertaste most tourists got. Instead, my heart was well rested and nurtured in this sparking cultural city.

I have been back to my 3rd home, Barcelona, for a week already. This time I'm settled in Sitges (45 mins from BCN).  The sun and beloved people continue to bring joy to my whole being. The artist residency in Poland will be an intensely creative period next.  My heart has been itching, and is more than ready to create from all the inspiration I received this past year.  But am I ready to say yet another goodbye to my love?

巴黎 - 很多人心目中的浪漫之都,但有不少朋友失望而回,投訴這個城市不友善,並不歡迎遊客。多得沙發客幾個素未謀面卻親切得驚人的東道主,舟車勞頓的我,經歷過在英國威爾斯Wales一個小型藝術節寒冷天氣下露營及車站過夜後,竟可以在聞名的文化大都會中從容不迫地閒逛、舒適自在地休息。

人與人之間微妙的關係輕輕觸動我的心,令到一個本來冰冷的旅遊景點變得真實有人情味,我等旅人在途上總會交上數之不盡的知己朋友,有些會在這幅畫上留下深刻的色彩,今次遇上偶然看到前世景像的Dan分享我倆過去的關連,還有接待我如多年老友的DidierBruno,可能,我們真的曾在另一個時空相親相愛、守望相助,生命之可能性,已超越一剎那的感動。

第四次再嘗巴塞的體溫,卻有截然不同的經歷,今次住在離市中心45分鐘車程的錫切斯Sitges於炎炎夏日瘋狂地開會、工作、愛、敘舊,熱得快失去自我,相信是時候為七八月波蘭藝術家駐場計劃準備心情,在新環境釀下一朵以生命綻放的花。

Free food on the street with Hen & Jess in London!
Look at your smile.  How can I not love you, my dearest Jess?
Trial run for Creative Alchemy, a blind-folded interactive performance. 
The tree house in Mellowcroft, Wales during CWM Festival.
Some participants going through their own blind-folded trip. 
A moment with you is more than a thousand words.
Beautiful light with gorgeous people.
A short hike near the camp site.
Spot light on the chosen land?
After first hitchhiking, I also had my first privilege to sleep in train station.  Yeah!  I DID it!
Last London family reunion before I took off.
Dan took me to his Butoh teacher, Ken's, dance performance right after I arrived Paris.  His little boy is so adorable. 
Cool centre for a variety of art.
Left: Philomène & Dan negotiation in process.  Right: STOP sign is heavy, man. 
Doesn't this labyrinth look like my upcycle magazine art, LOL?
The pearl of France.
FREE ME!
Exhausted...  Only have a few hours left.  Where to go?
Love this painted wall of fames in the museum of Modern Art.
The Eiffel Tower in the gate of peace.
Do those shining statues look fake or just me?
Daniel Buren's Monumenta 2012 in Grand Palais.  The space is magnificent, and the circles look fun, but is there more to it?
Nevertheless, it's the perfect public space to take your family & chill with friends.
The only group picture of Didier, Bruno, and me in the reflection.
"Les Deux Plateaux" by the same artist, Buren, at the main courtyard of the Palais-Royal, Paris. 
Such a bizarre juxtaposition of art and architectures.
Jazz on the street of Paris - exactly my cup of tea.
Cozy home of Didier & Bruno - where I regained my strength for more travel. 
The famous "Grande Arche" (Great Arch) in la Défense.
La Défense, the "new" town where all the skyscrapers are.
Looking at the "Arc de Triomphe" through art.
A super quick catch up with lovely friends within my 12 hour stopover in London.
Introducing my dear and the sky castle in Sitges.
Thanks to David, I finally visited an organic farm...
Iris's sculpture looked stunning in the performance, and Arnout did well as the MAN!
Linda & I got caught in the washing machine.
LinLin & Numi's first try of selling at the Lost & Found market.
What are you looking for, love?
I will be launching the Hong Kong school of Estudio Nomada Art Program in January 2013!  Check out the following site for details: 個旅程有另一個大收獲:我將會於2013年1月與位於巴塞隆納Estudio Nomada合作開香港分校!http://hongkong.estudio-nomada.com/